When I fell in love with Jesus He became my everything, having less did no longer mean hope was lost. You can work hard in school and earn scholarships and continue learning. I did it! I paid for my college 100% through scholarships. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel, the tunnel you choose leads you to your destiny. Our inherent desire for shiny objects stems from thirst for the first of mankind, thirst for water. Imagine Jesus’ love is what we thirst for and apply that same love to your life, then be filled, then be overflowing.

Church Review 1-14-2018

1-14-18 The Crossing To New Life
Chugiak, Ak
Joy Peace Purpose, those are the words that welcome you at the podium. The worship service at the Crossing was amazing. To me, it felt like a concert with the lights beaming with the songs of worship. Beautiful Spirit filled praising and worship. You know, that feeling of being in love with Jesus that ignites deep deep down in your soul. Fan the flame!
Again, I have a tendency to write down the message for me because that is how I learn and retain knowledge to better seek understanding. I write it down, review, repent and repeat. Only through action of knowledge is there understanding. Here is what I wrote “Being a Christian is not being religious it is being an example of love through Christ. Therefore, Go.”
When you choose every day to lay down your life for Christ you make way for the waves of love, the more love the bigger the wave. I see it as simple as being the wife, parent, daughter God calls us to be. That is love.
Accepting Jesus is a radical change. For those with nothing to tithe how will you do it? Easy. Tithe in the form of prayer and love. I did not have but a dime in my purse but I gave it along with a prayer for this Church’s ministry. Which are many and ever growing like that of the body of Christ. When it comes to what is God’s will for your life? Is it not clear that we are all called to do the same and that is to love? Love thy God with all thine heart and soul and understanding. Don’t let go of hope. Honestly desire God’s will above your own. Selfishness is the opposite of love, when you give honestly love honestly and proclaim for all to see that Jesus saved you, literally, what more will He ask of you? His will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven. Do you have burden of finances? Give those burdens to God but do not sit idle, take the initiative and that initiative is inviting the Holy Spirit to use you each and every single day. How then, does love not pour from your actions? Simply by not letting go of what is holding you back and 97% of the hold back is one’s self. Self-seeking, self-indulging, self-pity. Give up being selfish because selfishness is hate. God is love and that love is all consuming when Jesus is Lord of your Life. Suffering leads to obedience, be obedient and no longer suffer. Resentment leads to repentance and in turn leads to replenishing of the soul. Filling your cup with love and praying it overflows. We are the winds of change with the words that come from our mouth. We are reminded every word that comes from your mouth is recorded in heaven. Now, what do you have to say? Anything not out of love should not be said. Speak love, speak truth or don’t speak. My world perspective has changed now to an eternal perspective. Urgent Message: the clock is ticking in the mind of man but time is a man made concept there is only God’s good time. And that is perfect. I love how the good word means the perfect word but because He is so humble we use the term good. Do good today for today is a good day. Now, go forth with the willingness to embrace God’s will every single day and at the root of it all it is simply to love, He does the work He holds the non existent clock that is a delusion of man for the only time we need to tell is God’s perfect timing, not delayed, not rushed but perfect. Amen.

Hope for the Poor

IMG_5093When I hear that growing up in poverty means you do not have hope, that is a bold faced lie of the enemy. I grew up below the poverty line and accepted my lot in life but I also grew up in love beyond measure. I found my hope in Jesus. When I fell in love with Him and accepted Him I had nothing but hope and viewed the world through a new heart. It is only when I strayed in shame is when hope became less obvious but it was always there, never lost. Jesus knows I am willing to give up my lot in heaven for that one person because that one person means the world to Him. He died for all of us and loves all of us. It is putting His teachings into practice. I did imagine what would Jesus do growing up and that practice became a way of life. Simply put to love all. I am no better than the person to the right or the person to the left I am who I am and Jesus loves me for that in all my imperfections. Be willing, be hopeful be all consuming love so that when you walk down the street the darkness runs to hide but we know that darkness cannot hide in the light. Amen.


There will be an incident in your life or many, where everything changes. It is a button pushed in your heart that will make you Rise. For me, it happens a lot. I care too much, about every single thing. It could be consuming but it is not. I take heed to the most important lessons I’ve learned and those are lessons of love.

On December 13 I cried and felt as if I had taken a hit to the heart and the pain was soul crushing. I was mad and enraged. Not understanding why and then I wrote: When your self-righteous hand is raised to be picked up for that glorious moment, until you are ready to give up your spot for a non-believer, you need a better understanding of love.

When I was a Sophmore I asked only three women to sign my yearbook. The front was my cousin Sissy, the middle was my classmate Chelsea and the Autograph Page was my friend Aurora, I called her Bucy or Aurora Mary Lucy Bucy Bahr. She took her own life on the 13th and when she left a piece of my heart left with her. I give my pain for her loss to Jesus and she is in His care. She was raped 11 months prior. Nothing was being done about it in our village because the person who did it was in a position of authority. I am continually seeking justice for her but giving up the right to punish to God. I would tremble. I asked the assailaint to willingly step down and to come forward, he did not. This matter is in God’s hands. I’ve been praying since October for God to shed light on the darkness. He is. He is in control.

Aurora had a smile that was contagious. One of my favorite things on this earth third to babies and elders. She was a veteran woman warrior of the Navy. Her testimony alone had the capability to create change. She was beautiful and I believe she is in a far better place and only Jesus can judge her. She is loved.

Her mother is hurting in her heart. It is a pain only Jesus can heal. We lift her up in prayer and give this situation to God. I believe in the power of prayer. As I have seen this power first hand time and time again.

When you hurt someone you Hurt Him and that’s an awful thing. Thank God for forgiveness and healing, give it to God. 0DFD9702-E05A-4457-8F94-CD882184610D

Fish Camp

IMG_2977Our home away from home was 13 bends or 11 miles up the Unalakleet River. Our parents built a one room cabin and fish rack, this is where we spent our childhood summers. My dad built swings for us kids and homemade basketball hoops. Our fun activities were swimming in the cold swift river, dad would build us a diving board with his chainsaw, we played grass fights where you grabbed as much grass as possible and tried to put it on someone else’s head while dodging getting a hair full of grass on the defense, we made up a game called hole in one or ball in hole, the same concept as mini golf but we used a Hills Bros. coffee can and a stick, hide and seek, fort building, fire starting, berry picking, fishing and fish cutting, book reading and drawing, story telling of legends of old or dreams from the night before. Endless creativity and our world was what we made it. We lived below the poverty line according to American standards but I wouldn’t trade all the riches in the world in exchange for the life we were given filled with love and knowledge passed down from our people.